A Post From Macho Man

So far, after RBS 07, there have been ups and downs for me. A time of rejoicing, fun, excitement to a time of grieve, self-denial, & self-rejection. Well, RBS have surely impacted me to be a better person when i'm faced with these situations. It ain't a mistake going to RBS.

Going to RBS taught me to be strong in whatever i do. Always trust GOD in all i do and let GOD take control. There are times where i let myself to be the boss. Not wanting anyone including GOD to interrupt. Not knowing that GOD can do a better job than i do, i failed some of the task i'm good in. Even small silly mistakes can come out of me.

Times of pain and suffering will be the time where i see my mentors being called back home by GOD. I lose a couple of elders whom i look up to; Unc Eric Kirton, then Unc Koh Ting Tiew. Next there are times where i felt totally rejected by society. To confessed, i've actually thought of killing myself one night because i cannot take the pain anymore (plz do not spread this. Whoever comes and read this will keep it within KIRTON blog only. thx). I've contacted Hazel, and she really comforted me with words. OMGSH man she really can talk to u and make u not to do it. Anyway, i thank GOd that i didnt do it that night.

That all happened when i do not do my quiet time. You see folks, this is the consequences when u do not follow closely to GOD's daily devotion. The normal reasoning will be "i do not have the time to do it". Well i've some time... Between the period of waiting for classes and when i reach university. I will just sit in my car and do my quiet time there. It really helped me through my daily life. For example, one of the lessons drawn from the daily devotion book is about keeping from letting out foul languages. That day i tried really really hard to focus on that.

You see, when u want to improve spiritually, do u think GOD will immediately let it be? Like God saying "OK, you will not say any foul language today." ???? NO man!! GOD will help u. Not remove it from u. I read somewhere... when u are commited to something u want to improve, GOD will tempt u even more in order to help u. For my case, that day, there is this bunch of uni mates that speaks foul language, they really drove me to my nerves. However, i remember of the things i've read in the daily devotion book. So i tried to hold back from cursing them.

Another method of me keeping in touch with GOD is this. Everytime the word GOD comes through my mind, I will take the initiative to move aside to one corner and close my eyes to pray. Talk to GOD and ask for wisdom and forgiveness.

I am totally touched when i reviewed this video from GODTUBE.com.... it really got me crying each time i view it. To conclude, i will post this video up. Keep on praying for me for wisdom, time management and commitment to GOD Almighty. Cheers.